What happened?

So on Thursday, December 10th 2009, Rob and I checked into the hospital to induce labor. We got there are 6:30am, on the Pitocin drip by 8:30 and pain-free by 10am. We were well on our way to seeing our little one. I had hoped to start labor naturally, I wanted to give Rob that look and say "I think it's time...!", madly rushing to the hospital, forgetting our bag at the front door....but it wasn't meant to be. Instead we brought music and movies, and at the last minute I instisted on my exercise ball to use during labor. It never left the car...I was strapped down to the bed, tubes and wires all over me unable to move- everything I read not to do....I almost felt robbed of the "labor experience"- I won't feel any labor pains....am I missing out on something? Some rite of passage for motherhood? Well, those thoughts didn't last for long, once the epidural stopped working on my left side and back labor kicked in! If labor is anything close to what that was like, I experienced enough, thank you very much!

We took this course for the whole day and my labor didn't really progress, so around 10pm it was decided to do a c-section. We struggled with this decision, since we felt that maybe we didn't give it enough time. And c-sections seem to be the norm instead of for emergencies only. I was feeling fine and the baby was not in distress. But, the doctor had his story on and was pressing to make it happen. So in the end, the idea that we could see our little one so soon won us over.

They wheeled me into the OR, Rob joined me dressed in his scrubs. I can't describe how excited we both felt at that moment- I think we told each other we loved each other a million times in one minute. This was it! This is what we have been waiting for our whole adult lives- a family.